Oscillating between real and surreal, fighting with loneliness and longing for deeper human connection. Moments of epiphany get rarer and searching for them becomes an obsession, that rush of happiness and satisfaction that floods the brain for a moment is addictive and becomes another emotional longing. The constant remnants of unpleasant personality traits from the past, those that you thought had disappeared with maturity. Up and down, up and down like a rollercoaster seeming to move forward towards the void of a future but feeling caught in an unbreakable repetitive loop.
